goddess of the woods

i'm back!!!

2006-04-21T13:07:00.000+08:00

awryt!!! haaaaayyyy... npakatagal qng nawala dhil sa lecheng computer na nacra... nkkasar nga eh, the best days of hyskul, the last days, un pa ung d q naipost... hayyy... but neway, im glad this freakin cpu is back! =p

grabe, todo dami ng nangyare..!!! ang hirap kung iuupd8 q ung more than 2 mos qng pgkawala... i know marami akong mkklimutan ilagay... kaya, i wont go into details na... basta... o6 rocks! sobrang saya sa ed4! magaganda ang mga dyosa! asteeg ang anyting! sarap kasama ng banned! basta, sa lahat ng naging part ng hyskul life q, kilala nio na mga sarili nio... thanks.. hmmm... baka gumawa aq ng list tapos post q... hahaha... aun...

neway, watsup wid me?? so, its summer vacation nd im so bored.. kc nman, i cant leave the house... d q maintindihan ang criteria ng parents q sa pagpayag sa mga lakad... feel q tuloi sadista lng cla... grr, umiinit ang ulo q... enuf of that... wala rn nga pla qng pera so mahirap tlga lumakad... the only tym that i get to see my beloved friends ay kpag may kailangang asikasuhin para sa kolehiyo...

college... im really really excited... its a fresh start.! new world, new people, new habits hopefully... but it also scares me.. its scary to think that i would have to leave a lot of things behind... i know it sounds so mean of me to say that i'd be leaving people behind... but hey, i think of things in a reality-based perspective... i know that a few days from now, maybe a month or so, i wouldnt be missing people the way i think i would miss them... so sad.. but true.. it is inevitable... (guys, it doesnt mean that i do not value you or would not nemor... if we see each other again, i would still be your frend... its just that my coping mechanism is fast...)

coping mechanism... yea... strength as sum would refer to it... i am a strong person... too bad, i am TOO strong... and its really bad... makes me numb... a lot of what i feel does not have 'extremity' anymore... which makes me think that what i feel isnt really what i 'feel' but what i 'want' to feel and what i 'think' i feel... do you understand what im saying? or maybe i sound insane already...

haaaaaaaayyy... i've changed... not that much, but i did... i think in a different way now... it may be a deeper way or in an insane way... haha... depends on how a person would take it... i prefer deeper... coz i understand what i am saying and people close to me do too... so, thinking deeper myt mean i am more mature now... hmmm....

teka, bket ba ko ngiingles??? neway... may kulang ata sa update ko... magulo kc e... saka na...

blah...

2006-02-13T20:14:00.000+08:00

alam nio ba? napakapariwara ko na! last wk wednesday lng ako pumasok tpos naexcuse na q, ng-cut pa q sa ibang subject! wahehe... pero aus lng, iniicp q nlng na ang importante ay ang mka-gradweyt ako! dba?! =)

onga pla, nung friday last wk, my event sa skul... The Mush Pit... akala ko may dance... pinakalat ko pa man dn na meron... wala pala... concert lng ng mga banda... 8 local (quesci) bands tpos padrinos, 10,000 pogi points at stonefree... lahat ng bandang yan may xientian.! c miro (the vocalist of stonefree) batch 95 pala... la lng, sharing! neway... b4 pala mg mush pit, ngpunta q kila lorie... aun, bonding kmeng 4 ni lorie, kamille pti niki... tapos, nagbihis na at nagpakakikay... pramis, kikay kme ng gabing un! mga nkamini skirt, halter, tube... at xempre make-up... harhar... wla lng, we just felt lyk getting girly... =) neway, pnag-skirt dn nmen ung ibang dyosa na pmnta... at accidentally, andaming nkapink! 6 out of 14! hehe.. at 7 nman ang nka-skirt... wala lng... mejo madaming nangyare ng gabing un... xempre masaya ung jamming, may mga kilig moments pa (aq wala.!).... pero may depression dn at iyakan... oh well, ganun tlga... sken, ang weird ng nangyare... well, not exactly weird... basta, hirap i-explain... angkulet ng "moment"... haha... pero nkksad kc may nhurt ata... haaaaayy.... basta, sobrang mixed ang mga pangyayare ng gabing iun! pero ewan... pag-uwi ko hanggang kinabukasan, masaya q... at least.! at, nadama q ang spirit ng valentine season! pano b nmang hndi ko madama e puro moment mga batchm8 q ng mush pit! nkk-aliw nga eh... hehe...

ng saturday pla, lovapalooza... sayang, gs2 q sana pmnta! nga lng wala akong ksama ska bka d rn aq pyagan kc 1230 n q nkauwe... pero aus lng... maiinggit lng ako dun!! harhar....

ng sunday... wala lng... anu ba nngyare? wala nman...

ngaun, uhm... pumasok ako!!!! at, d aq nal8!!!!! amazing dba?? wahehe... aun.. wala lng... open 4um mga diyosa knna... nagka-iyakan pero mahal pren nmen isat isa... =) actually, d pa tpos eh.. n-cut sken kc may humanities na... pero ok lng... halos lhat nman nailabas na eh... may pgkakahawig nman mga comments eh... sken, kelangan lng tlgang mging less frank... no.. d nman... mejo maging tactful lng.... aun!

nga pla, may nmimiss aq... gs2 q kausapin un nga lng... wala nman aqng sbhin... ska, nkkhiya kc sa dame ng pangyayare... feel q nga iniiwasan nia q eh.. lumalayo xa sa kinalulugaran ko... haaaaaaaaaayyyy....

yan lng muna...

HAPPY MONTHSARY pala ANYTIME GODDESSES!!!!
~goddess of the woods~

hero...

2006-02-01T20:15:00.000+08:00

matagal na xang gwapo, 1st yr plng! pero ganun lng... i never really thought na "crush ko xa"... basta alam qng gwapo xa... haha... never q pa xa nging kaklase pero magkakilala kme... d q alam kung pano, basta magkakilala kme... mabaet nman xa khet dati pa... ka-hi-hello... wala lang... existent xa pero d kme close... at minsan q lng xa makita... ata.. ewan... sa pagkakatanda ko... pero lately, aba! madalas q na xang makita.! ganun nba tlga dti pa pero ngaun q lng npancn? ewan ko... pero cguro dhil dn sa DotA... d q nman xa madalas mkalaro pero minsan binibisita nila kme... silang mga master.! hehe... at dun nga... DotA... isang araw, naglalaro kme sa laruan nila (may mga laruan kc per section eh.. haha...) at xempre sumating cla... aun, nanuod... nakakahiya nga eh, ang bano ko! pero bwiset xa, bano na nga ako, aba! tinutulungan pa ung kalaban ko! sabi b nman "c kyreen, c kyreen, patayin mo!"... katabi ko xa nun ah! bwiset tlgaaaa... pero aus lng, gwapo xa... ahahaha... pagkatapos ng game nmen na xempre natalo kc nga clang mga master tinuruan ung mga kalaban nmen, sumali cla... cla ng isa pang master... 6 kc kme nung una... 2 babae tpos 4 na guys... ng sumali cla, sbe nia ung 2 babae dw kampi nila tpos ung 4 na klaro nmen nung una... edi xempre ok sken, 2 master!! ehehehe... so aun, naglaro kme... xempre magaling cla... xa... ahaha... mnsan mamamatay n q tpos dadating xa to the rescue... aun, mabubuhay ako.! hehe... nakakatuwa xa... actuali khet nung d q pa xa klaro eh... natutuwa nko khet na gusto nia qng ipapatay... hahaha... edi lalo pang nkakatuwa nung k-team q xa! neway, aun.. nanalo kme... nkpag-divine ung isa... tpos, xempre, bayaran na... edi lapit na ko ky ate taray (bwal kc maingay dun e snay kme sa laruan nmen na maingay)... tpos nkbayad na xa, nsa likod ku xa.. tapos parang tinatapik tapik nia ung likod ko... basta ang hirap i-explain... parang minamasahe na ewan... basta ganun... e ako nman c bangag... d q lng pinancn.. at d na nga yata aq ngpaalam eh.. d q na matandaan... basta ang weird ku non... hahaha... pero alam ko, natutuwa ako sknia... neway, kinabukasan... sbe q ky phim (xa ung isa pang gurl na klaro nmen) may bago qng crush... tanong nia muna qng nsa rm... tpos ng sbe qng wala, xempre, nahulaan nia kagad! at xa dn pala!! hahaha... aun.. so since DotA inspiration nga nmen xa at lagi nia kmeng nirerescue ng game, nging code name nia... hero... grabe, natatawa tlga q pag nkikita q xa... npapangiti ako, oti... wahehe... kaya aun, after tlga nung game nging snob ako... well, d nman... cold lng... mataray... kc bka mamaya pag nging frendly pren ako mahalatang sobra ung ngiti ko!! hahaha... aun... ngaun d q xa minsan pinapancn... xempre d nman nia un nahahalata kc d nga kme close... hu cares kung pinapancn q xa o hinde dba? i dont really matter to him... d yan drama ha... seryoso lng... we're not really frends kc.. acquaintance wud be a better term... aun... pero alam nio ba? lakas tlga ng epekto nun sken... lam mo un, instant pampangiti sken... basta nakita ko msaya na ko! ahahaha... khapon nga eh, pmnta xa sa rm kc my pinasa xa sa tcher nmen... punyeta, nagpipigil tlga ko ng ngiti! tpos class pic dn kahapon, nsa my atomium kme tpos dumaan cla ng frend nia sa walk papuntang canteen... aba, mga mata ko tlga! kita kgad xa! at xempre, instant smile.!! wahehehe... tapos aun... ng ng-lunch dn ako, nkita ko xa... smile ulit sa sarili! wahahaha... actuali ngaun basta naiicp q xa, npapangiti na ko e... lyk ryt now.! hehe...aun.. tpos mglunch pmnta kmeng values garden... at from there, xempre magaling tlga mata ko, kita ko kgad cla ng frends nia na nsa court! nandun, nakaupo sa bambini... tpos nkita dn ng frends ko, alam na kc nila kaya senyas kgad.. pero xempre naunahan na nga cla ng mata ko kaya balewala... hahaha... aun, tapos nagaya cla pmnta sa court, dun sa other bambini... 3 kc un eh... sa kabilang gilid kme... e 6 kme, 4 lng kaxa sa bambini... xempre kme ni pimi inunahan nila para umupo kme sa gitnang bambini... e ayaw nmen kaya sa may stage nlng kme umupo... at nglaser-laser... haha... tapos bumalik kme sknila, tpos umupo dn sa may bambining gitna... wala lang... bumalik dn kme ulit dun sa 4... tpos kwentuhan... d q xa tntgnan, nsa gilid q eh.. pero alam kung nandun xa... aun, hanggang dumami na mga tao sa baba na nagaantay magbatch pic, saka lng kme tmigil.. umakyat ako ksama c wafu my labs kc may kelangan aq ibgay sumwer... sa taas hinanap q pren xa sa bambini! aba, wala na dun.. pero nakita ku ren! aun, ng nabigay q na nsa field na ung batchm8s q... edi dun nren kme pmunta... tpos, xempre nawala ulet xa... pero nahanap ku ulet... ako pa? hahaha.. aun... hanggang sa ngform n kme ng 2006 tntgnan ku xa... madali nman xang mkita eh... pramis... aun... tpos umakyat na kme... eh ung section nila (okay obyus na section nia) may pic2ran pa sa field kaya nakikita ku pren xa khet nsa taas... nakasilip kc ako e, habang inaantay ung grupm8s ko na ppnta sa bhay... aun... nktingin ako sknya... pero xempre ung kunware umiikot ung mata ko... hahaha... tpos, tpos na pic2re taking nila, nakita q xa umalis... mlamang mgddota un! sayang, d kme mgddota.. hahaha... neway... blahblahblah... kanina, intrams nmen... at aun, maglalaro xa! pero antagal... nauna ung game nmen... at aun, sa view ko derecho lng xa... pero d q xa tntgnan, nkkhiya pag nkita nia... aun... la lng... mahiyain kc qng tumitig2 eh... neway... basta nung game na nila, nanood ako khet nasa other syd ng court... hirap nga eh... pero as i sed knna, madali nman xang makita! hahaha.... aun.. nkita ko nasupal xa... awww. ok lng, gwapo pa rn xa! at aun, ntapos game nila... nanalo cla! parehas nmen, ung 2 team nila panalo... galing! neway, nkita ko ung frends nia, paalis... malamang alis na rn xa... pmnta xa sa my likod ko, kinuha ung bag nia... at aun, wala na... tpos a few mins l8er.. pagtngin ko sa kanan... aba andun pa! gwapo tlga!! hahaha... aun, hnggang sulyap lng ako plague... hanggang sa umalis na kme.... nkaalis nren ata xa nun eh... oh well, masaya tlga q kpag naiicp q xa... hehehe... basta... ikaw, d mo nman cguro to mababasa e... la lng.. gwapo mo... nkktuwa ka! pasenxa kung mataray ako ha... bitch eh.. harhar... la lng... aun, crush kita!!! wahehehe...
aun lng, antok nko! paalam... =)

*** sa mga makakabasa ne2 na mahuhulaan kung cno xa (duh, obyus nman sa kwento eh.! haha), quiet nlng po... hehe...

lyrics galore

2006-01-03T16:44:00.000+08:00

"You"
by Athena Cage

It's time to be honest with myself
i've fooled around too long
now all I think about is you
and what we used to have

i'm scared to live without your love
coz you were really all i had
now my only love has gone away
and it hurts so bad

The only thing that's missing in my life, is you.
The only thing I need in my life, is you.
is you, is you
is you, baby.

It's time to be honest with you babe
you made me a better woman
you cared for me so much
so much you scared me boy

Now I feel you in the air I breathe
even though you're not in front of me
you were like a summer breeze
and it's killing me

The only thing that's missing in my life, is you.
The only thing I need in my life, is you.

The only thing that's missing in my life, is you.
The only thing I need in my life, is you.

is you babe
You're the only man

I'm tired of crying, come back in my life
think about it, it's been awhile
I've never meant to hurt you baby
you're the only man I need.....

The only thing that's missing in my life, is you.
The only thing I need in my life, is you.

The only thing that's missing in my life, is you.
The only thing I need in my life, is you.

is you
the only man is you
the only man is you

The only thing that's missing in my life, is you.
The only thing I need in my life, is you.

the only man is you..

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...I'm just speaking from experience
Nothing can compare to your first true love
So I hope this will remind you
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us...
~don't forget about us (mariah carey)

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...Baby if I ever get the chance to be with you again I would sacrifice
Cuz the feeling that I feel within
No other man would ever make me feel so right...
...I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much...
...My heart seems to skip another beat
Every time we speak, I can't believe I feel so weak...
~going crazy (natalie)

new year

2006-01-03T12:42:00.000+08:00

happy new year!

alam nio ba, hindi happy ang new year ko... kc, 9pm ng 31 npagalitan ako.! kc ngpapatulong mom q sa fud.. e tumulong nman na q so nung tinawag nia q, mejo ntgalan ako sa pagbaba kc ngbabasa q ng msgs sa fone... aun... npagalitan aq at naconfisc8 ung mga telepono q... tpos, 11pm, npagalitan aq ulet dhil nnman sa fud... hayy... napakasaya tlga ng new year ko.! oh well, ganian tlga... haha... itatawa q nlng... =)

ai, bukas pasukan na ulet.!! kkxcyt.!! miss q na mga jokes, cards... lahat!!! miss q na anywurz at xempre anytime.! in short, anyting!!! waha... miss q na buong ed4!!!!!

hmmm... nga pala, kanina may reunion ang tsiksilog... ung barkada nmen sa review center ng summer... nga lng, d kme nkpagpaalam ni kuya kaya d kme nkapunta... waha...

hayy... naalala ko nnman xa... ayoko naaaaaaaaaa... masasaktan lng aq ulet... pero wala, mahal ko talaga e....

La Salle

2005-12-28T16:47:00.000+08:00

...future...

last monday, december 26, i found out from my brother's ex and from another frend that the DLSUET results were already available at the dlsu site... and my bro's ex told my brother that he passed.! when i learned that, i got really anxious to know if i also passed that i was a bit trembling... then, she told kuya that i did make it.! which caused me to tremble even more.... hahaha... then, i opened the dlsu site and saw for myself the result... i typed my first and last names then verified it... i did make it!!!! and, what made me more happy was that i passed my first choice which was BS in applied economics and BS in accountancy.! i really wanted that course because it was double major and accountants are always in demand around the globe... my dad already has plans for my future... he knows where i should start looking for a job and blahblahblah... so, i'm already one step closer to a bright future.! well, actually, im still waiting for the result of the UPCAT... if i pass my first choice (BAA), i'd go for it... but if not, i'd like to study in la salle... but, my parents wouldn't allow me so im trying to convince them... i mean, what if i pass my 2nd choice in up?? they want me to take that up because it's UP... but, im xur lots would disagree with me in this line of thought, i think i have a greater chance of having a bright future in taking up accounting in la salle than taking up communications research in UPD or economics or business management in UP Pampanga... besides, i wanna work abroad and as i said before, accountants are in demand around the globe...

newayzz, if ever i do study in la salle.. i have a feeling it wont be easy... well, judging from the info on the site... goodness, the pre-requisites to the major subjects in accounting don't look easy... eh my applied econ paaaaa!!! makes me wonder about BAA in UP.. no doubt that wud also be hard.!! hayyy earth, im getting to anxious about my college life... wish me luck!!! =)

upd8

2005-12-22T20:50:00.000+08:00

...update...

so.. i've been blog-hopping for hours now and i realyzd that my blog needs an update... its been more than 2 wks since my last post.! oh well, got no tym... actually, i've got time... i'm just too lazy to use it properly... hahaha...

neway, its christmas break.! what have i been up to?? well, nothing much... most of my time goes to sleep... hehe... other things my time's spent on are tv, computer and of course... phone.! hu wud survyv the vacation without communication from the outside world??? hahaha... thank God for unlimited... well, i planned to get my globe unlimited... sadly, i have no more load... so, my sun's the only one i use... i mean, for 2 way communcation... my globe's still open... i read the messages... just cant reply to the people... hayyy... neway, u guys know the anime ghost fighter?? oh, hu dusnt know that hu's age's near myn?? hahaha... well, we bought dvds of the complete episodes.. yeah!! at least we've got sumthing to look forward to everyday of the vacation... hehe... btw, i really want to play dota!!!! sadly, i cant because... one, i'm sick.. im not allowed to go out... two, even if i wasn't, i'm kinda still banned from it... coz the last tym i played dota with my brother, we went home at around 5 am... actually, we told our parents we got home at around 3... and they reacted negatively... how much more if we told the truth?? hahaha... well, we started at around 11pm that's why inabot kme ng madaling araw... u myt be thinking i spent the whole day/night just playing... it was just 6 hrs... well, couldn't really say "just"... hahaha... neway, we had fun so tis ok even if we got bad shot... hehe...

sooo.. have to stop this now, gonna watch hp3 on hbo... babush!!

btw, merry christmas in advance.!!! =)

carol fest

2005-12-06T18:40:00.000+08:00

Carol Fest

kanina gnawa ung elims ng carol fest.. aun... wala lang... as usual ang ed4 ay hindi handa... nung umaga lang gnawa ang choreo! umaga ung sa tagalog tapos after lunch, ung sa english naman... kanina lng den nmen nakita ung costume... kahapon kc binili nung iba sa divisoria... actually, ung sa boys, sariling damit lng tlga, d na bumili... ung sa girls, white skirt (na may purple na blah pag sop tpos black sa alto ) tapos plain white baby tee ska kahit anong step-in... anyway, bago naman kami mgperform ay napractice nmen ng buo ung presentation... once or twice? haha... pero hindi na na-polish kc nung last practice inakyat na kme ni levi (1st yr) kc dw mad-default na kme! aun... edi todo madali na sa pagbaba... hehe... e2 dw ung order: curie tpos fleming tapos dar then avo tapos einstein then kame and last bec... aun... so kinig2 lng muna kme... nung una, wala lang.. sarap manuod! pero, nung darwin na... whaw, anggaling!! kaya aun, knabahan na kme.. hehe... d nman sa tlgang umaasa kmeng manalo pero dun na ng-sink in na dapat galingan dn nmen.. hehe...

so aun na nga.. kami na... waaaaaaaaahhh... kakakaba tlga!! d na ko makahinga ng maayos nung einstein na eh.. tapos, pagakyat.. mejo nakarelax nman na sa stage.. aun... may mga kamalian pero ok lng un! haha... un nga lng, pagdating sa english... nakoooooooooo mejo may cra na ung cd... may minus 1 kc eh... nung una, parang konti lng so cge, tuloi lng.. pero.. nung banda dulo... gosh, nag-jump xa kaya bglang tapos na ung kanta nmen..! wala tuloi finale!! nkkbad3p!!! pero actually, ung pnakabad3p dun was ung sa pagbaba... kc disqualified na ata kme... kc dw, medley... eh malay ba nmeng medley un? i mean, nkasulat lng sa cd was "anong gagawin mo"... tapos d rn nman nmen alam lahat na bwal ang medley... nkksad tlga nun... kc, andaming nagssbeng magaling dw kme... lower years... kahet nga c mam hermano e! un nga lng... disqualified nga ata... aun, natapos na ang expected na magaling na bec! edi announcement na ng pasok sa finals.. 3 lng ung kukunin... pero, bago inannounce, binasa muna ung guidelines or hrounds for disqualification... habang binabasa un, kausap nmen c mam hermano... at... 4 dw ang disqualified... in short, ung 3 pasok default lng! whaw...
e2 ung iba't ibang sinuway na rules:
avo-may latin ata or basta foreign language na hindi english e english at tagalog lng dpat...
edison-medley nga...
einstein-cnabayan nila si britney dun sa my only wish...
fleming-hindi christmas songs...
so, ang mga pasok, bec, curie at darwin!!
pero baket ganun, nkkbad3p lng is sbe nila bawal ang voice coach... eh ung iba meron... tapos d pala un ground for disqualification... ang daya!! well, kung ganon, wala ng nag-qualify... kc bec curie at darwin may voice coach e... hehe...

blahblahblah... may himig after nun... kaya tinanong nmen c mam lomibao... and accdg to her... if walang na-disqualify ang pasok.. bec, darwin at edison! the ranking wouldve been bec darwin edison avo curie (not xur sa ei at flem)... grabe... todo puri pa si maam lomibao samen eh... ganda ng choreo... galing ng gloria... ganda ng costume... ganda ng blending ng payapang daigdig... ah basta, todo puri tlga... nanghinayang dn xa e... pasaway dw kc kme... malay ba nmen?

grabe, nkkpanghinayang tlga!!!! sayang sinta!!!! oh well, at least we know na kung sa performance lng kanina, we should've won... and besyds, all others think we were great... ganun tlga, my rules.. pero, magaganda paren kme at gwapo ang boys nmen!!!! hahaha...

basta, dapat galingan nilang lahat bukas... lalo na curie, kc kme dapat andun! joke... =) pero, go darwiiiiiiiiiiiiiin!!! galing galing nio!!! =)

funness...

2005-11-25T21:03:00.000+08:00

gateway and fiesta carnival funness..

wala lng... ansaya ng araw na 2... kc d aq pumasok... pero mga 4 nagkita2 kme nila lorie, ferdie, j9, kris, alfredo, raul at aljon sa gateway... tapos, inaantay namen c bryan... e antagal nia... kaya nagpa-pic na kme.. tapos nmen magpa-pic.. wala pa ren c bry... pmnta na kme ng fiesta carnival... nung una, parang nawalan na kme ng gana kc gus2 nmen mag karting.. eh wala pala... nakakatakot nman mg-viking khet na un talaga ung balak... pti mag roller coaster kc parang mamatay ka dhil hindi mukhang safe... eh xempre ang korni nman... kaya aun, nagrollercoaster na kmeng lahat... sakto nga e... pang 8 lng ung roller coaster... hehe... grabe, para tlgang humihiwalay katawan ko saka laman... hahaha... tapos parang my current pa ung hawakan... nanginginig tuloy kamay ko... hehe.... neway, aun... 3 ung bglang baba tapos 2 ulet... ansaya khet na wyl experiencing it nakakatakot kc para kang mamamatay... hehe... nakaka2wa pala kc c alfredo sumisigaw ng "i love you m**i**r!!"... cla aljon dn tuloy ska lorie at j9 un ung cnisigaw... hahaha... ako sigaw lng tlga eh... c ferdie wala... c aljon wala dn... tapos c kris matikas.. nagvideo! nakakakaba nga kc baka mmya malglag phone nia... sayang! hehe... aun... tapos nmen mgrollercoaster... wala paren c bry... tapos, gusto tlga ni alfredo kris at ferdie na magviking... e ayaw ni lorie at j9... gus2 ko na sana itry un nga lng auq namang ako lng babae... kaya aun... ung 4 lng ngviking... c raul hnde... tapos c aljon sumama.... angkulet tlga nila e.. kapag nasa taas c alfredo cgaw ulet ng "i love you m**i**r!!!".... tapos c ferdie may sariling sigaw den... hulaan nio nlng... hahaha... tapos c kris as usual, pic nnman! vain tlga ung mga un eh!! hehe... aun.. tapos nun c fredo pagod na... c ferdie nagiinarte tapos c wafu ska kapatid parang walang nagyare!! hehe... tapos, dumating na c bryan!!! hehehe... aun, pumunta na kme ulet ng g8way... tapos, kinuha na nmen ung pics... ang kyut ng pics!!!! la lng.. tapos kumaen na kme sa food express... halos lahat kme bk except kay alfredo... nawalan nga un ng gana eh... maxado iniicp c m**i**r eh... hehe... nakakatawa xa... aun, pgkatapos nila ko antaying matapos (bagal ko kc eh)... hinatid nmen c j9 sa my exit papunta ng national... tapos... mga 5 mins yata kmeng nagba-bbye sa isa't-isa.! hahaha... c bry at lorie bblik ng sm... ung apat uuwi na... tapos ako ren uwi na... hinatid ako ni ferdie... aun... saya noh? =)

Hanging yet again...

2005-11-23T21:03:00.000+08:00

hanging yet again...

i can't explain what i am feeling right now... i do not know where i am standing... and its so hard... you should know that you are still my "special friend"... that's what i was trying to tell you yesterday, when i sed "d ako galet kc ikaw yan"... as i've said in my previous post... i hate the fact that i don't hate you... coz as maam e sed, i have every ryt to do so.. u make me feel stupid at times u know? just like when we had the "family meeting"... u made me feel unsure about what you truly feel... it seemed like u were just forced to tell me that you love me... and honestly, i expected more... sorry for being assuming... but when tix apologized, the more i felt that you lacked... his apology looked so sincere but yours was one big joke... i'm sorry if im being brutal with the words im using ryt now... but im just being frank... hayy...

e2 nnman aq... ang gusto ko lng nman sabihin... umayos ka nga! cnabe ko nman dba.. i cant wait for you forever.. pero, i am waiting pa ren... cguro kc ikaw pa ren... nakakainis ka lng tlga kc "napaka pathetic mo!" (as maam E said).. please lang umayos ka... hayy e2 nnman tayo... pang ilang beses na 2... sana nman after everything may patunguhan to... ...

what a day...

2005-11-22T22:40:00.000+08:00

what a day!

nice things...
>we didnt bring junk for the mascot making... yet, we successfully made a costume from the trash in our room!!! and guess what, we are in for the finals tomorrow!!!! amazing aint it? =)
>we played dota knina and our team won!!! and... ako 1st sameng 6!!!! first time!!! =)

highlight of the day...
sad... hurtful... unexpected...

for you 2:
well, since u posted it on our bulletin board, y don't i post it here? would you want that? i dunno for boys but i think that most girls who would know about what happened would think of you as lowly people... it was meant to be a joke... yah, i understand that... but come on, some brains please... were u really that stupid to think that that was good clean fun? and even if u were, haven't you got even an inkling of respect for us to associate us with such?? know what, makes me think that you 2 are gay... boys dont do that to girls.. boys respect girls!!

for you:
i never expected that u wud do such a thing... after your saying that you still love me? how could you say that when you are able to do such a thing today? do you know what love is??? gosh, u know u're someone very special to me... and i thought i was to you too.. guess i wasn't...

i hate the fact that this happened, i hate the fact that you were the one hu did it, i hate the fact that i cried... i hate the fact that it was because of you... and the thing i hate most... is the fact that i don't hate you....

Its all in the mind

2005-11-21T23:05:00.000+08:00

Love is a state of mind (and everything that comes with the subject)...

in my point of view that is... well, its also based on my experience(s) and others' too...
isn't it that when you think about the person all the time, the more you "fall"?
and when you convince yourself (truly!) that you're over a certain person, that's what happens... you eventually forget about the person and the less special he gets...

think about it...
it's all in the mind, isn't it?

as in the goddesses:
hmm.. i wont mention which goddess i am talking about.. go figure, people...

diyosa 1
-->she's been into this guy for more than 3 yrs now... and their story is so twisted... neway, she swallowed her pride and asked him if there was something... the answer was no... yet, she still hopes... she's denying it but whenever she sees the guy, goodness knows that she gets so "high" and giddy... in other words, she thinks that there's something more... she tells her mind that "these are signs, i shouldn't give up..."... reality check... the guy said there was nothing.! *well, this is a case where you convince urself about ur hopes*

diyosa 2
-->she's felt something for him since last yr... they're friends.. and that's it... the goddess knows that she is just a mere friend to him... and so she claims that she's accepted it... but deep inside, we know she hasn't accepted it yet... at the back of her mind, i know she believes more in the part that she isn't over him yet... that's why she's asking me to stop the teasing... she knows she'll only think about him more... *love is a state of mind...*

diyosa 3
-->she said she doesn't like him anymore... then poof! she realized she likes him still... hahaha... *its all about realizing.. not feeling?*

diyosa 4
-->she loves both of them... or does she? guy 1 has been hers for bout 11 months now, but here comes guy 2... she doesn't want to lose any of the 2... guy 1 because "sayang"... pero is it still love? guy 2 because shes happy with him... agen, is it love? *love is when u tell urself it is love*

hmm.. guess that's enuf... well, still wanted to add some stuff pero its already l8 and i myt get grounded if i wake my parents because of the sound produced by my typing...

hope everybody got the point... hehe...
mwahness!! =)

new blog

2005-11-20T21:24:00.000+08:00

new blog

wala lang.. just felt like making a new one.. hopefully, i also renew my life.. hahaha...
the layout's cute isn't it? well, as my URL says, i am the goddess of the woods... don't ask for explanations coz there won't be any... at least any that i'll tell you of.... hehe... i'll just think of other reasons that would be nice enuf to share... then i'll post it... but for now, no reasons...
well, tha's ol for now.! =)